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you're all i ever wanted.. [November 14th, 2007] [ mood | crushed ] What am I doing wrong? i ran over a lil rabbit a while ago on accident. first time ever running over anything and killing it. it was bad. i balled for 30 mins. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

You give me feelings that i adore. [September 27th, 2007] [ mood | blah ] hrmm school is a draaag. today, i saw a psychiatrist/psychologist. [w/e he was] it was different.. kaitlyn, i want to come to your job. what was jordan doing? Andy went to a Bloc Party show. he got me a shirt. woo I avoided German homework this week. I didnt feel like reading a 27 page article from the internet. im excited about Halloween. ^_^ i told jordan he should be either michael myers or a vampire.  he lol.ed @ me. ::S I G H:: im bored. i think ill go take a shower now. ive been feeling soo lazy lately and i fn hate it. grr. 2 / boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

mmmm [May 24th, 2007] [ mood | excited ] im like in love w/ johns cologne. hollister jake or w/e it is. just wanna eat it. its all over me :] and i keep smelling my shirt haha. im silly yes. 2 more days of high school ever! wow its crazy. imma miss some ppl. time for the real real world. i made a new friend monday. charles... something. hes a cute kid. and little haha. john tracked mud in the church...nice. im looking forward to kentucky!! im super tired ughhhh dont stay on the phone until 5 in the morning ever. its horrible. later nigs. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

bury all the pages that we know. [April 11th, 2007] everything is sooo boring. there is nothing to do. ugh. my flats made my heels almost bleed today. i wish there were kooler ppl at school. heh. i want to go back to florida. ppl are nicer there. sigh. i always sound like im so whiny on here lol. i try not to be but most of my depression kicks in when i get on here. im in my room alone isolated on the computer... not good. this guy is talking to me about jesus. lol. hes not helping. my dad doesnt help either just pisses me off more. im not retarded i know how im supposed to live. i dont really do anything majorly wrong but for some reason it feels like im getting punished as if i were. then i look at these other ppl that do way worse things than i do.. and they're lives are just oh so perfect. they get frickin everything makes me want to puke, actually. so i give up. whatev. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

i want a kiss that leaves me ghasping. [April 2nd, 2007] [ mood | crushed ] im breaking down. if this is what love feels like, i dont want it. 1 / boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

I wanna feel a kiss just crush me, break me down. [March 26th, 2007] [ mood | awake ] Disney World was fun even tho i went with my parents. couldve used a friend. prolly wouldve been more fun. but it was still fun. it was soo pretty =] i wish i couldve talked to that german boy a little more tho sigh. lol this is insane...im up and ready for school before 7:30 in the morning. i should take a picture. this never happens. im dreading school tho. i prolly have a gazillion things to make up ugh. poor matthew. im on a high and hes on a very low and im getting low. =[ and whats also amazing is that all this week ive actually ate breakfast! yup.. im just asking myself... WHATS WRONG WITH ME. haha. kill hannah makes me feel good. i cant wait til we go to kentucky in june eek!  TIFF if you go to Germany..will you bring me back a souvenir...or ..a boyfriend..maybe? haha if you did go i would be sooo  hella jealous ! boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

gawd. [February 22nd, 2007] [ mood | depressed ] i hate life. im never happy anymore. sux. love is the most horrible feeling i could ever feel. its all bullshit. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

Germany! [December 4th, 2006] [ mood | creative ] So ive been doing this economics project on Germany for quite awhile i guess. not really tho. its due wednesday and i only have almost half of it done.  Theres basically like 3 parts to it. 1. posterboard 2. 1,000 word essay 3. 10 min. speech without using anything. Jordan & I decided to get married and move to Germany. hes like obsessed with everything GERMANY/GERMAN. its crazy. Id really like to go to Dresden & Cologne. Theres like a bizilion castles there & its beautiful. ..well from the pics ive seen lol. I was on last.fm the other week and dang...theres some hot german boys haha. + theres a chocolate museum there.. mmmhmm reminds me of willy wonky's choc. factory ^_^ So anyway Germany seems pretty much freaking awesome. I def. want to go there before i die. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

forget what we're told before we get too old [October 15th, 2006] i cant take this. what is WRONG with me. this is like the worst feeling ever. & its my birthday. boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

i see you lookin at me like you already know.. [October 14th, 2006] [ mood | crushed ] welp... me & adam lasted a week. lol.  i knew thats how long we'd last anyway.  but its kool. we're friends still. yay. hes a cute kid. i mean , srsly. hes funnn. i had fun. i just watched final destination 3 like 2 times in a roll. & im sick of it. lol i was sad about the whole adam ignoring me thing. but he finally told me & now im ok. i really liked him. haah k enough about that. so.. october is bumping..... ok i cant stop talking about dude. ughh.. dang it. why do i have to suck so bad. think im getting sick. i eat like..basically one thing a day now. i had a chalupa (lol) yesterday..... soup today... nothing the other day.... dunno why. i just dont feel hungry. even when there's food around. and no im not an anorexic whore.  i really wanted cake today tho. and i hate cake. the icing....blahh... bump that  : ] boys whisper lullabies and wet the bed.

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